Throwing rice

“People aren’t allowed to be average anymore, things aren’t allowed to be average. Things have to be incredible or monstrous. Nothing is allowed to be in-between.” – Jacksepticeye

I love this. I came across these throwaway musings while watching gameplay of the remake of Silent Hill 2, as you do.

And this was said quite casually. I had to pause the video, rewind and write his words down. Because I completely agree.

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I want to swim in the “in-between”. But also want gratification. I drafted a post a good few weeks ago now called Flatlining Friendships but ultimately decided against posting it. Those friendships had risen again, albeit half-baked. And that’s fine, people are people… I just wish they’d sent flowers?

I think perhaps I’m yet to cement my “incredible” – or if I’ve caught glimpses of it, to be allowed the breathing space and honour of revelling in it.

Then again, perhaps people are only throwing rice over the readily-available “incredible” and the “monstrous” among us.

Stepping away from my monster, I just want to be understood and appreciated in a way that works with me. It was written on my Year 7 report that I was a conscientious student. And that’s never changed. I put in a big effort (nerd) and care (too much) and am thoughtful as much as a lake is wet.

That kind of person and all of that thinking and planning and constant introspection needs a genuine thank you. For all that mental work to be truly understood. A president’s handshake.

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In the words of Robbie Williams, “I just wanna feel real love/Feel the home that I live in”